She’s five feet six inches tall, an hourglass figure, flawless skin, and hair that other women pay for. Her appearance announces her as she enters a room. Her body reeks of arrogance. Confidence and intimidation are written all over her face. But mentally, she is not who you think she is. She is dressed in deceit, lies, and insecurities, but when unclothed – She’s The Naked Truth.
We all know that Monday can be that dreaded day partly because we wish the weekend lasted longer. Make this Monday’s State of Mind a positive vibe. Your mindset is positive, and you are ready for growth. There is nothing you cannot do (nothing is impossible). You are looking forward to setting and meeting new goals. Dreams do come true. Believe in yourself. You have the confidence and courage to pursue your dreams. You got this!
Today is Fearless Friday. I am grateful to be alive. I know that progress is not possible without effort. I dream big. I am humble but not timid. I am proud. I welcome my mistakes and failures as lessons and opportunities for growth. I am fearless and walking in the belief and confidence in myself. I am ready. I GOT THIS!
I embrace silence because it is a comfort to me. The introvert in me inhales all that is positive and peaceful. I long for the quiet moments and cherish every second. I exhale negativity and all that is not for me. I am creating new ideas daily. I am compassionate. I am enthusiastic about today.
I am creating change. I am focused and strong-minded. I know that nothing is impossible. I am enough. I have faith in myself and embrace that others believe in me also. I am who I am because I am doing my best every day, and I choose happiness. I am grateful all day, every day. I am ready.
Believe in yourself. We are all a work in progress. We all have made mistakes and have done wrong. It’s how we move forward. It’s the change we are willing to make for the betterment of ourselves. You’re capable of doing anything you want. It starts and ends with you. Dream big.
I am amazing, beautiful, and carefree. I am determined to succeed. I am excited to be alive. I am fearless. Gratitude is my armor. Healing is a part of my natural high. Inspiration comes easily to me. I am jovial and kind. My laughter is contagious. I am mindful of others. I am natural. I am optimistic about the future. I attract positivity. I am a quiet yet quirky Queen. I am relevant. I am smart. I am thoughtful. I am unselfish. I am vibrant. I am witty. I am x-ceptional. I am youthful. I am zany.
I am strong. My sense of self is powerful. I am humble. My actions and my silence are my ROARS. I embrace hard days with compassion (they are only temporary). It brings me joy when I make others smile. My story is mine to tell ( it starts and ends with me). I am capable of reaching and achieving all my dreams and goals. Nothing can stop me. I GOT THIS!
Each day I grow and become a better version of myself. I appreciate the love and support of my family and friends. My creativity comes from the positive energy that surrounds me. I am capable, determined, and ready.
I am alive. I am brave. I am creative. I am determined. I encourage myself and others daily. I am focused. I am grateful. I am happy and healthy. I am independent and intelligent. Joy is my mood today. I am kind. I am love. I am magnificent. My needs come first. I am open to new ideas. I am peaceful, phenomenal, and proud. I am a Queen. I am resilient. I am strong. I am trustworthy. I am unique. I am valued. I am whole. I am x-cellent. I am youthful. I am zestful. I am who I am; your approval is not needed.
Come rain or shine; I’m ready to be among fellow parishioners as Pastor Madison delivers as he always does a phenomenal sermon. He speaks from his heart to the souls of those sitting in the pews, and every word spoken resonates with those who are there; it does not matter if they came to seek Christ or hear Pastor Madison speak. The message is always educational and thought-provoking. Eight years ago, I was new in town and looking for fun when I met Viola at the beauty salon. When asking where I could have a good time and enjoy the nightlife of Waycross, I did not expect to get an invitation to church. Not wanting to be rude, I accepted the invitation and was glad I did. I needed to hear that sermon that night. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was a cool Friday night, and the parking lot of Burning Bush Baptist Church was packed. My mind immediately went to “Maybe I should do a U-turn and pull up at the local club I just passed to get here.” There were no parking spaces available, so I parked next door at the convenience store and aimlessly made my entrance into the church. I was late, and the choir was in the middle of singing “Lily in the Valley” as I searched for somewhere to sit. Burning Bush Baptist Church is a small church, and the pews were full. Those arriving late like myself lined up against the back wall taking in the spirit of the room. The ushers busied themselves with handing out fans and programs and doing other tasks. Pastor Madison approached the pulpit with tears in his eyes and asked that we keep his family in prayer. The sermon that evening was about keeping faith when life throws you a curveball. His voice trembled as he said, “Everyone has experienced something disruptive, surprising, and or unexpected in their lives,” Pastor asked that through it all, we stay focused, uplifted, and in prayer because that’s the best response to any curveball. Amid the gossip after church, I learned that Viola had been diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer, and her family was overwhelmed; that was the Pastors’ curveball. My move to Waycross was all about my curveball. I left Boston, Massachusetts, because my cheating husband fathered twins with another woman, knowing I could not have children of my own. I discovered this on Facebook of all places. There were photos of him, the twins, and their mother all over his Facebook page. The twins’ birth, the twin’s milestones, the twins’ first birthday, and I find out after finally deciding I would reunite with family and friends via Facebook. Devastated, I had my “Waiting to Exhale” moment on Facebook live and tagged my husband with Jazmin Sullivan’s “Bust Your Windows.” My Mama always said, “Two wrongs don’t make it right.” but Aunt Jackie says, “Two wrongs don’t make it right, but it damn sure makes us even.” It did feel good to release the anger, but the damage done to my heart is undoable. I say, “Love doesn’t hurt, but loving the wrong person does.” After the divorce, I decided to start over far away from the drama in my birth-town. My parents left Waycross when I was just three weeks old and never looked back. And I returned at thirty-two years old, leaving Boston with no intentions of ever returning. Love can be just as difficult as life, but life without love seems foreseeable to me.
The sky depicts my inner thoughts as if it knows more than I care to share. A beautiful blue in hues yet intense with dark clouds and light. My silence becomes whispers, and the murmurs fight the roar as I choose to battle the storm within. My silence has become my roar. I’m not shy, anti-social, or stuck-up. I’m quiet, and my silence is not a weakness. My heart’s whisper is known to my soul.
When I try to do right, something will go wrong. I know I’m no saint. I am a work in progress, making little to no progress. That scripture about “Faith without work is dead” says a whole lot about me. The devil is out and about, which means I have to work extra hard. Fresh out of prison and living in a halfway house full of reformed convicts like myself, looking for a new start, everything illegal and wrong seems to find me when I want to do right. I can take four steps forward, only to be pushed six steps back once people learn that I have a record. My past seems to determine my present for those unwilling to give me a second chance. I am not the man I used to be. I’m tired, but I refuse to give up. Returning to prison is not an option. I wake each morning asking for strength and an extra dose of common sense. I’m determined to stay on the right path. I will walk with Jesus in all that I do. So help me, God, I will not let the devil win. Not today, not ever.